everything changd.

2007-12-27T16:23:00.000-08:00

i brought this all to myself.

2007-12-15T22:30:00.000-08:00

im back from aussy.

and i've moved!
http://pinkpaperplane.livejournal.com

2007-12-09T12:06:00.000-08:00

im fired on friday. geez. but it's okay, since i left one more day of work.
im so gona miss walter la!! :D

yest out with cor and kj
then jx dehui came
play pool then home.

and i've rlly got no mood to online...........
but since im flying off tonight, yeah.

and seriously i dont feel like leaving singapore. zz
i will miss ya peeps. :(

"Most relationships tend to fail
Not because of the absence of love;
Love is always present,
It's just that one is being loved too much
And the other was being loved too little.

You need to learn to let go when you're hurting too much,
Realize that sometimes love just isn't enough
And accept the fact that things aren't always gonna be the same."

bye.

2007-12-06T23:25:00.000-08:00

im tired.
and after this post
i shall go and slp :)

so anyway these few days happened alot of things
my life's kinda drama now. lol

but anw yest after work met up with hooxinyun and kj
played pool then walked around..

then found out ger cant work with us anymore!
wtffffff uber upset.
but anw i've only got like 2 more days at work..
yeah and today work was horrible la dey
met jinfei to pei ger go marina..
then meet kj
then they pei me go work

yeah and time is passing so bloody slow
cant even talk la. and the supervisors act. complained abt me.
f you la.
then went home with walter and wilson
at least it's a funny trip home ;)

and i love the ppl who treat me lunch :D
and that includes jf too. hahaha see im so thankful.

using my sis laptop..
dont think i will be using com anytime until i come back from aussy
yeah till then.

oh and my sis broke up with her gg to be 3 yrs boyfriend.
how silly can she get.

bye

2007-12-03T23:48:00.000-08:00

aku suka kamu.

sales aint great today. but nvm great ppl entertaining me. ahah
i've got off day tmr! yayness. eheh

anw there's this photographer taking picts of us almost everyday

hamham so cute la :D

act. still got edmund leh. but hes busy!! :(

aku ~~chinta~~ kamu.

2007-12-01T22:23:00.000-08:00

woke up in the middle of the night coughing my lungs out.
and gotten shouted by my mom for not taking medicine :(

this morning went town to meet germ
then went for work.
it was slack, until it gets too boring.
uh huh and then the thing that sucks was having to find those boxes.
heh anw i sold 5 items! dats like damn not bad right :D
and one of them was my fav pair of swans, costing 6oo bucks. goodness.

yeah then some self proclaimed photographer wanted to help us take photo!

yeah. so the ppl there were friendly.. nice.
just that my legs are aching now.
and guess what. cause dear clement is gg to rozi's wedding tmr
so i gotta work full day tmr :(
ppl come visit me k. im gona be bored to death. serious.

then we went makan
yeah my fav mango lingo :D

let you guys know more abt me.
mango's my fav fruit. hehe.

bye ppl :)

2007-11-30T07:21:00.000-08:00

ee yucks
my voice is damn disgusting. and i kept coughing. :(

anw went to town, like again. zz
went with bitch friend to find jobs..
kinda depressing.. all vacancy full :(
in the end we kinda gave up, went makan shopped and everything

then went paragon visit gerlee!
and guesss what!! clement say help him to rotate shift until i go overseas.
woohoo :D means i can work with germy! yay.
though only 8 days la dey. but better than nth right? ehehe. :D

then me and bitch got nth to do after that
wanted to do manicure
but broke! :(
so went parklane play pool again

everyday's the same routine
at least gotten myself a job.
but what shld i wear tmr? :'(

oh and cy's leaving tmr!! i will miss you man.
cannot celebrate our monthsery alr :P

not.

/edited
if you think it's my fault, it's my fault okay.
im so hurt when i see what you told kj.
"friendship over self, in the end i got nothing".
so now you think our friendship is a facade that means nothing now right?
i treat you as one of my closest friend.
it's so difficult to find a different gender as bestfriend. and now you said such things.
im sorry to break the promise. but you didnt mention it for so long, i thought you dont mean it anymore.
sorry to make you feel bullcrap, like totally.
but tell you what. im feeling even more fucked up than you do now.

2007-11-29T12:36:00.000-08:00

hey yo guys

im feeling fucked up these few days.
fell sick again. but feeling alright today.. yeah.

anw tues was cy's bday
went out to celebrate..
went parklane play pool
left
went ps
then went ger house to stayover...
and watched The Protege again. it doesn seem as nice as last time lehz

next day.. ger fell sick
not my fault la dey!! haha i nvr pass disease to her lol
yeah went to see doctor with her
then met stanley and went back town again....
he rlly v asshole la. aahha

gees so many days been in town.
i need a job please. anyone got lobang tell me k.

bye.

the innocence is gone. how do i get it back?

2007-11-25T23:59:00.000-08:00

HELLO GUYS
been busy these few days
and the next few days too....

so like yest me bekah kj and jf went to catch enchanted
sooo funny la. the chipmunk's super cute! :D ahha.
you guys shld go catch it
then we went meridien to pool
then went back ps makan
and arcade
and my first attempt at DDR!
ahahaha. it's super funny la. all thanks to bekah

yeah and tday went town and meet germ first
and i fell in love with a dress!!!! omfg. it's damn pretty pls?
damn ex. but worth it! hahahah.
we stayed in the shop for sooooo long and i reserved the dress. HEHEH :D

after that she went to work
and then meet up with bekah kj mokker and gid
went parklane to pool
and im back home.

nights :)

2007-11-23T23:34:00.000-08:00

hey all.
hopefully my rashes dont come back in the middle of the night..
then i'll be able to go out tmr :D dang damn happy.

was fucking depressed tday
went out and eat with cy
came back and then im sick againn
i slept for so many days alr la dey
i missed so much stufff!!!! huh i didnt even went to the gig tonight at red bar :'(

cant believe im sick for so many days
i still thought im gona die. and yeah im soon gona finish this rd of medicine
so hopefully i dont need to see the doc again.

anw i love this skin the most man.. used it like ard last yr i guess
hmm k im off.
bye

2007-11-23T00:23:00.000-08:00

im sick. but guess im feeling better alr :)
at least that's smth that comforts me.

didnt even stay overnight at the chalet
went escape.. go-kart rules :D
then it raineddddddd. spoiler! then the damn rain made me feel worse
then we went back chalet

and played poker
then i started having rashes. urgh
then fever.
no choice had to ask my dad fetch me back.

and i stayed on the bed for so many days. wtf can die la.
and today supposedly gg out with besty
but last min got fever again. urgh
so she's here and staying over.

yeah im gg off soon. cause im feeling quite upset now.
bye

我生了思念这一个死病。

2007-11-19T21:56:00.000-08:00

IM SICK.
I'VE GOT HIGH FEVER
SORETHROAT
FLU
COUGH.
wtf like the whole sick package pls?

nvr felt so....... urgh before.

went to sch this morning
get my testimonial and stuff.. luckily i didnt faint man. ahah

then went home
and decided not to go to work.
and i've make up my mind to quit.
so freaking obvious that fucking bitch wants to fire meee
not like im always playing or what okay. so yeah im jobless and i dont intend to get another one.

uh huh and then the bitch went to pei me see doctor
the medicine is eeeeeeew.

im so sick now
dont even wana think abt anything else
tell me how to go chalet tmr :'(
but duh of cos im still gg.

/edit
"now i know you're not a fairytale, and dreams were meant for sleeping.
& wishes upon a star just don't come true."

tell me how can i believe words from you guys?
empty promises. sweet talks. nth else.

who will be there for me, frankly speaking?
i feel pathetic. roar.

2007-11-17T22:46:00.000-08:00

today's a fucked up day.

have to see those customers' dulan faces

so many cuts on my fingers

dear qing ram the trolley onto my ankle

and it hurts like hell ok!!!

after work went to highlight my hair

finally had time to do it.

but it's not obvious. zzz i can only see it under the light. so yeah

work yest was tiring aswel

got scolded by peggy for playing too much :(

yesterday's work. yeah gotta be stuck in this room until damn late evening

uh huh we had dinner at ps and home sweet home.

well thats yest la.

today sucks even more.

im tired and yeah, tired.

bye ppl.

my com has officially broken down.

2007-11-15T21:31:00.000-08:00

yoyo ppl :D

im so tired tday! but darn happy. dont know why too :D
i guess im beginning to love my work.. eheh
great ppl ard and im like so slack today! :D yay
but guess tmr prob will get a lecture frm peggy :/

i spent like the whole morning listening to music.. chatting.. and doing the dumb barcode..
uh huh then went for break
then went back and continue the barcode, isolating myself in the room ;(
and roger came
and thanks to him for distracting me, i think i screw the task up. lol
but at least he accompanied me for two hours
not like the bloody heartless 2 bitches who went upstairs and slack even more.

then after that walk around and went up to help them pack stationery.
end of work. woohoo :D no cashier!
but soon i'd still be my turn. zz

and yay kj's officially my les partner.
thanks la gf. i will be grateful to you ;P
it's only temporary. i wont last long with you. haha!

im not gg sch tmr
im so tired i need to slp more!
tmr still working :D so gotta rest more. eheh

i need more jeans!!!! i've only got like... black white normal jeans light blue and red jeans
not enough for work man. need to buy more! green :D

and i want watch gameplan la dey
im alr so lag alr...... someone jio me out and watch with me! ;D

bye.

2007-11-15T01:13:00.000-08:00

wtf!!! screw my com! >(
kept auto shutting like nobody's business. zzzzzzz

k been quite busy these few days..
and guess what! tmr im returning to work!
ahhhh and qingting said i will be the bloody cashier.
shucks die die die. prob i will be fired tmr :/

so anw went out with my 3 dearies yest!!
went town
and i bought the light blue jeans :D
wasnt in the shopping mood though :P

and can you believe it? we took neos! ahha.
it's like so damn long didnt took neos. and it's so outdated
butttttttt it's pretty :D

eheh then at night went off to meet my mom..

uh huh today woke up superrrrr early
met besty. went to make our hair
gees have to wait for it to groww
then walk ard in jurong point -.-
and back home.

im super tired can......
these few days i didnt have enough slp!!
and im still not slping now!
urgh i confirm overslp tmr and the 2 bitch is gona strangle me
but still im gona be dead tmr anw

okay i shall update on the problems in my life:
1. o'lvl results
2. secret
3. hair
4. braces. i scared pain ;(
5. work. i hate being the cashier :(
6. secret

urgh i wana get rid of as many probs as possible! :(
kk
nights ppl. bye

eh anw the PAE briefing can dont go notttt
it's damn lame.

2007-11-13T10:48:00.000-08:00

yesterday work was rather alright.
except that i was late!!! ahahah
i was still telling kj the night before not to be late when she was online ard 1am
i thought she'd oversleep.. in the end i was the one!! :X

uh huh and today i woke up late again.
totally dont feel like gg back sch.
rushed outta my house.. and like haven even tie my hair yet -.-

ohoh anw back to the work topic
the job was quite easy... packing the books and dealing with the cashier thing
gees i dont want be cashier lah. i prefer to be stuck in the room with the books. ahha
though there's no hot guys working, but at least they are nice and friendly. yep

worked for damn long yest..
im not working tday and tmr -.-
going out! and im gg out ltr with...cy and ger!!
wth so freaking long nvr go out with them alr pls.
but at night got dentist appointment ;( what a spoiler.

yeah oh and anw o's officially over!!
zzz i will miss the sch oppo coffeeshop.. great memories. cries.
and bitch cheer up man
you cant be like this everyday okay.. i know it's tough
but to be emo or not is your choice.
you've got to help yourself first.. cause i know whatever we said is futile.

okay i shall go prepare alr!! bye.

and qingting it's not always i can use the com lor.
im using my sis laptop! you shld go find out the shipping supply thing
and dont rush me la. i v busy wan okay!! :P
and tell me when you guys want meet again to discuss.......

2007-11-11T10:12:00.000-08:00

FINALLY A PERMANENT SKIN DONE.

im freaking hungry man.
and i need to wake up damn superrrr early tmr!
gona go acs barker road.. which we dont really quite know the way there :/
but heck lah
i rlly dont feel like workingggggggggggg
but urgh nvm i shall do it.

ive got nth much to blog cause im not out today :(
im stuck at home with poa mcqs

so here's a song lyric

Ashlee Simpson's Beautifully Broken
It seems like yesterday that my world fell from the sky
It seems like yesterday I didn’t know how hard I could cry
It feels like tomorrow I may not get by
But I will try
I will try
Wipe the tears from my eyes

I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t mind if you know it
I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t care if I show it

Everyday is a new day
I’m reminded of my past
Every time there’s another storm
I know that it won’t last
Every moment I’m filled with hope
‘Cause I get another chance
But I will try
I will try
Got nothing
Left to hide

I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t mind if you know it
I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t care if I show it

Without the highs and lows
Where would we go
Where would we go

I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t mind if you know it
I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t care if I show it
I am beautifully broken
I am beautifully broken
I'm beautifully broken
And I don't care if I show it

bye :)

2007-11-10T09:21:00.000-08:00

today's been a suey day.
i shall not comment about it, anyway bee movie is cute :]

this is a sad world, no matter how hard i try to convince myself that im happy, im not.

2007-11-09T23:56:00.000-08:00

hello friends :)

really damn exhausted. had such a long long day man :/

woke up damn early

meet kj qingting xy at bishan park... only to realise the cycling thingy aint opened.

yeap.

so went playground.. then bussed to amk hub for breakfast.

we were busy discussing abt our new project :P

then went kj house

continued our secret prj -.-

hogging the com like whatever.zz. haha

and then we watched scary movies. heheh

screamed like crazy.

after which me and kj bussed to gideon's house

watched tv

makan

then his dad taught me mahjong!!!

like finally i know how to play.

and im not that bad uh :D ehehe.

then finally reached home..

oh and i guess i found a job.

shucks i will be damn packed this holidays :/

anw bitch.

cheer up k. dont let the bastards out there to bring you down

you are totally fine without him.

go find another. wads the big deal right?

such guy aint worth your sorrows.

love ya bitch :)

2007-11-08T22:20:00.000-08:00

hey yo

gosh so tiredddd
anyway i totally suck in livejournal, so im gona stick with blogger :/
but still thanks to wanyi for helping :)

yeah went to meet that retarded bitch
went vivo... and there are like so many pretty tops pls?
but still i chose the pull and bear's. heheh :D
once i've got enough money... im gona spend it all on clothes!!!

yeah two days of shopping
nearly all my savings are gone. :'(

after that we went back ps
and i've got my french manicure done!

it isnt clear here, but it's pretty pretty pls! haha.
anyway kj let's get the package next time. yay

while waitin for our nails to dry. it's takes forever.

yeppie i haven bath yet. stinks like hell.
and im gona slp early tonight
gotta wake up superrrrrrrrrrr early tmr for cycling! :D
so long didnt see xy and qt!

oh yay and maybe going gid house tmr to ton. hehe

cya :)

2007-11-08T00:34:00.000-08:00

hello guys. had so much fun today :)

with ps with kj corine bekah jinfei and aslam and mokker. yeap and before that me and kj went to shop, bought a top, bought esprit wallet, went to get two more piercings and yeah.
then we walked to town. went arcade amd we trashed the guys at the game which i dont know whats that called. haha.

and we caught stardust :D
damn nice man. the guy's so handsome like wtf. after that walked to wisma and shopped again, then went to pool. then finally home :)

gona meet kj and maybe corine tmr for manicure!!
cant wait. hehe

a retarded group photo.

peace out.

2007-11-06T22:48:00.000-08:00

OMFGGGGGGG
O'LVLS ARE OVER.
the poa on the 13th doesn count okay!!!

was super high after lit today
anyway my com's still down.....
but im gona hurry my mom to repair it man!!!!!
so i can go back to my usual onlining. ehehe

and i've got so much stuff to update about my life
tmr we are gona go party!!! watch movies
french manicure
shopping
my god cant wait.

yeah im gona change everything when i come back..
prolly when my com's fixed. yay
do you think i should change my url??!? and my whole layout and style

ohhhhh i shall go tidy my wardrobe for my new clothes to shift in!!!
ahhaha. damn happy today

for these past few days,
i thought and i realised i haven been loving myself
how do i love someone else when i cant even love myself?
in the past... everything i do i nvr think for myself
nvr do the things i want.
but now im gona live for myself,
and not for anyone.
so dont try to bring me down.

yeppies
ppl jiO me out k
since my com's down
i will be super bored at home

life's great this way

till then!!

2007-11-01T17:15:00.000-07:00

hello ~~happy~~ november.
im not in a very good mood today
.

first thing first im so sick of o's that i feel like not taking the exams anymore. because apparently im so bored with my whole life right now.

second thing i've got bad hair day nowadays

third thing i screwed up my poa today. which proves that im really a poa idiot.

uh huh fourth thing tmr've got phys paper and im not motivated to study at all.

fifth thing is that im lacking of sleep badly. i dont care. tmr after the paper im gona rush home and slp for the whole day.

anyway im gona change my blog soon
so byebye in advance.

2007-10-29T21:03:00.000-07:00

hey

im in kj's house now.
i forgot to bring my house keys out la. :'(

anw today's math paper was okay...
but it's harder than the past yr papers...
i expected it to be super easy can!! haha.

but forget it. anw today's the last day of my tuition
im feeling kinda sad :(
sniffs.

k actually i've got nth much to blog abt
just that since im in kj's house..
i might aswel use her com :P

and im still thinking what time i should go home
or should i watch finish the 9pm show first. eheh

kk zzz
math paper 2 tmr

bye

2007-10-28T14:06:00.000-07:00

yo guys

yay hist paper rules :D
ahaha. actually i didnt wana come online..
but need to download some songs :D

and i've got no mood at all to continue studying la.
total sianness man
how i wish o's end like... NOW. :/
anw i've got all planned out after o's!! cant wait :D

yep
went out yest and shopped
eheheh.
bought everything i needed alr.........
except earpiece. i buy like dont know how many alr can!??!
but it just keep having problems.

oh and im changing my hp in dec!!!
wth cant wait. yay mom's super nice :)

i hate math. i hate poa. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

and i've been dreaming lately
everyday please :(
must be too stressed. ahahha.
and yest i cldnt get to slp till 3am
im so scared la.
in the end went to sleep with my sis :D eheh

anw i dread tmr
morning paper
afternoon paper
evening still needa rush to tuition.
wth i've got no life!! >(

kk i shall stop slacking
bye.

i like this the most. yay

click play!!
these videos are retarded. but the songs are like so nice :D

2007-10-25T22:02:00.000-07:00

i place all my hopes on china tmr..
if it didnt come out, im doomed :/

2007-10-23T23:07:00.000-07:00

hello.

zz it's like 1am and yeah i think im gona go sleep soon..
chem paper later :/
totaly sianness.....

ohohohh anyway how can i forget!!!
went to sch with jaslin and gid to catch click five in our sch.
thanks shiokping for telling me that they confirm gg man :D
Kyle's like so damn freaking handsome..
and he waved at me before getting outta sch!!
at least not a wasted trip -.-

so went home..
slept for awhile
went out
meet jf and corine...
studied..
but ended up toking cock most of the time.

yeah
tmr gona wake up early to meet my loves for breakfast
yeah wish me luck for chem :)

and click five's on air with 98.7 now :D

bye

2007-10-22T12:53:00.000-07:00

aye my com worked miraculously today :D

alright so like almost everyone's gg back sch for the exam
but im not
and im still here slackinggggggg. zz

like seriously i've totally got no mood to study anymore
no motivation, no nothing. i just wana get over and done with it. :/

yeah so anw went to study at bishan at usual yest..

we wore the same shirt :D

hahaha didnt manage to study at all
talk cock
went arcade
eat
go home
watch tv
and finally did math. :/

"why do you think you are missing something you never had?"

2007-10-19T11:00:00.000-07:00

morning ppl!
omfg i didnt use com for one whole fking week!!!!
amazing man.
cause apparantly my com's officially down.
so gotta use my sis laptop :(

anyway yesterday.
i screwed my phys part in practical.
felt damn shitty after that.
yeah... after that frm 9.3o to 1.3o we stayed in the audi...
wth super bored pls!!!

then went mac with mokker and jf
kj win la. pangseh huh!!!! you gona die terribly the next time i see you :p

makan
and gid came.
then they left.. and me and gid went to study
then we went to do damn lots of crazy and stupid stuff :D
it's rlly damn stupid but damn exciting man.
cant say it here. lol :D
at least i cheered up ;D

yeah reached home
and i went to sleep alr. :I

cant waste anymore time today anyway..
gona go bishan join cy and gerlee study sooonnnn :]

yeps.
bye!

2007-10-14T23:12:00.000-07:00

hey bitch i read your letter and im super touched can :D

i cant wait for after o's!
we've got all plan out alr. ehehe

and all my songs in my mp3 is gone. ah fuck
heartbreak.

alright im gona re download all the songs
bye

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERMAINE LEE! :)
love ya many.

2007-10-13T21:27:00.000-07:00

im a happy hardworking girl today :D

2007-10-12T23:27:00.000-07:00

today's graduation day.

i initially wanted to type just a few words and put all the photos.
but i know i will end up typing huge chunks. so yeah.
i woke up this morning feel damn energised
first time man
prolly cause i know today's officially the last day of sch.
finally the last day of my four years.

went to sch
and i still told kj i wont cry for godsake.
and who knows when the moment i saw mrs ngiam cried
i cant control my tears la -.-

yep
i've got alot to say
and im gona say it all out today.

mrs ngiam;
im sorry. i know im damn problematic during these two years, be it my attire or the troubles i got to with the teachers. i know you are always trying to help me, but i kept failing you and disappointing you. especially during towards the end of sec 3 and the beginning of sec 4, my clique got into so much trouble that seriously i felt so guilty towards you. im sorry for my immaturity for skipping all the extra lessons last year, for getting into redundant troubles and all sort. thank you for helping me to moderate my marks. thank you for still believing in me. i wont fail you anymore.

and throughout these four years in zhss
without you guys
i wont be able to make it.
be it hi-bye friends or what
thanks for making my four years in zhonghua the greatest :)

chenying;
im sure i dont need to say much. cause i know you know deep down inside how much you mean to me. and i swear our friendship will last forever. i guess half of the days i spent in zhonghua were with you. our memories can never be forgotten. love ya bestfriend.

kaijia;
although i kept scolding you bitch and everything, you know i rlly love you. i will miss the times we squabble during lessons, the times when i pour out everything from your pencil case whenever you pissed me off, the times when we got scolded by gim hua, the days when we go have breakfast before going sch... etc. and i wana thank you for everything. really, thanks for the mid night calls. and thanks for being there for me whenever i need you. although we are only close for these 2 yrs, i felt i knew you for my whole life alr. im serious and i know you love me too, right fucktard? :D

xinyun;
although we werent so close during these two years, you were there whenever i needed you. when you know smth is wrong with me, you called me up, even in the middle of the night. i didnt say, but im really touched you know. thanks for being so understanding. i will nvr forget the hao jiemeis of you me deanna and qingting during our lower sec years. i miss you and we will keep in contact okay? much loves :)

germaine lee;
i didnt expect to be so close with ya. we gotta thanks band for that. im amazed by how we click so well and all that. thanks for being such a great listening ear. you know all of my problems and was always beside me. thanks for that. and your birthday is coming! :)

deanna;
it's funny how we are finally alright until the last day of the sch. you are my four years best bitch and how much i complain about you, bitch about you, i still love you. it's so hard to see you walk away this year. still remember the times during lower sec, we are so close with xy and qt, even our class positions are next to each other! you made my four years brighten up so much. and i know we are gona go our own way soon, i just want to let you know dont ever forget our friendship, cause you meant alot to me.

bekah;
i cant believe we are so close now.. esp during this year. i rmb how much i was dulan with you last yr, but now i know i cant do without you! though i hardly tell you my problems, but at least i know you are always there for me. i will miss those times when me you kj and dea always sat at one corner during emath and started to crap. although those days are long-gone, but you are forever in my heart girl. and we're gona hang out more during holidays!!

xiaoqing;
loh qingting! thanks for being such a great jiemei during our lower sec years. i will nvr forget your violent acts. how i've got so many internal injuries because of you! though we drift apart during these two years, i just wana let you know i love you! :)

i cant possibly type out the rest.. but the others, like corine, jinfei, mokker, gideon... etc thanks for makin the days in zhonghua so fun. you guys will always be my good friends forever yeah? :)

jx;
without zhonghua, i wont be able to know you of course. time flies, 2 months plus have passed. whatever that has happened, it's in the past. maybe you've forgotten everything alr, including me. maybe you've move on so well that you dont even care anymore, but i just want to say, thanks for everything. thanks for reciprocating my love for you. i still rmb you telling me even if we cant be lovers, we shall be good friends. flames to dust. it's saddening to see how we can turn into strangers so fast. whatever it is, maybe we can never be friends anymore, i just wana say thanks for bein there for me in the past, thanks for being such a great friend. and dont smoke so much yeah.

gosh im tired cause i typed so much alr.
i shall post the picts.
be prepared. there's alot. ahah

sexy black :)

i love mrs lee :D

mrs ngiam, and my fav ms ong :D

2e3'o5 still rocks.

four years in the same class :)

didnt upload some picts.. damn tired alr.

still, a damn memorable day.

after that went Ajc open house with alan kj deanna yee en
and then suddenly we felt like just staying in zhonghua.
i didnt really want to move on. im so used to zhonghua.
although how much i claim i dislike this leaf sch,
but now i wont deny it's my second home.

yep im tired.

bye.

jiemeis forever.

2007-10-11T12:18:00.000-07:00

after sleeping for so long, im still tired. :l

yeah i didnt go to sch, didnt feel like.
3 prds of lit pls.
yawns.

so like the past few days did nth much
tuesday cabbed to gid house after sch
then went back
met mok and go back sch to have night study..
which is redundant. ahah

then yest i've got like tuitionnnnnnn
totally boring.

and today im rlly gona start my intensive mugging okay :D
no distractions pls. eheh

ohoh tmr's graduation day!!!!
im so gona go sch. yay.

bye.

2007-10-07T21:51:00.000-07:00

pictures and good night. :)

2007-10-07T12:33:00.000-07:00

hey guys

went some hotel celebrate my grandma's bday yest night :)
and it's been long since i saw my cuzzy!!
cant wait for eoy when we go australia tgt :D

yep
just came back frm tuition..

and gona go find my bitch to study together ltr.

i shall love my god damned life frm now on.
bye

2007-10-06T15:47:00.000-07:00

my sis's such an irritant.

she's angry with me yest night cause she thought i hog on the phone for 1 hour..
when i didnt but just started using only.
and i didnt use the computer for like so many days alr..
i mean really use.
and my mom screamed her head off when she saw me setting up the com
so in the end i didnt use. :/

my life's screwed.
besides studying, nothing else. zz

my 4 main problems in my life:
1. ~~love~~
2. o'lvl
3. Deanna
4. hp bill

and that's enough for me to take it.

going out ltr to celebrate my grandma bday.
bye

2007-10-04T19:21:00.000-07:00

hey yo loves.
im lazy to set up my com so im here using my sis's laptop
she's quite kind actually :D

anyway i've been doing papers and papers everyday man
and slept for only like 3 hours a day? sleeping ard 3am.. :(
but of course i had afternoon naps. eheh

yep and the lessons are so packed and urgh
it's really killing me lah.
i totally cant wait for after o's life. how nice
and i've got no motivations at all..
im just studying like a dead zombie -.-

k no use talking crap now
i shall go have dinner, do some papers, and sleep.
i need a hell lot of sleep :D

im gona study hard and not think of anything else at this moment.

Would you dance
if I asked you to dance?
Would you run
and never look back?
Would you cry
if you saw me cry?
And would you save my soul, tonight

2007-09-30T21:20:00.000-07:00

wake me up when september ends.

unhappy things about today:
1. i did poa unwillingly.
2. i lost daytona twice.
3. i owe kj $

happy things about today:
1. i bought sum41 album today.

back to school tmr. :/

I've been waiting for this chance
to nulify this sick romance
So pull the chord to detonate
so sick of you dont speak of me
The reverend saint of misery
and holy savior of masochist
Trying to find a way
it's getting better everyday
And i got you now
im not alone
All i need in this life is one thing to believe in.

2007-09-29T11:06:00.000-07:00

hey all
i felt pretty screwed up these few days.
just take for example yest.. i lost my *
and my mom scolded me cause of my bill..
and i just cant concentrate on studying for my o's.

everything is going wrong in my life.
sometimes i dont know whether im stupid or what
i attend the same lessons as them, i sometimes did revise,
why did my results come out so screwed.
and it's not like they did study. damn fuck it
im just ranting lah.

been studying after sch these few days
and it's totally boring
sometimes i rlly feel like giving up on myself.
but obviously i wont.

so many emotions going through my mind,
it's suffocating. i always feel like dying whenever i've got such feeling.

and for fucksake
im so sick of ppl carrying the results word wherever they go
cant you see i've got such lousy results
and you guys are there complaining abt your results when it's like damn bloody good
screw you guys
your life revolves ard studies only huh.
go get a life or smth.

and i hate myself for being so emotional
and cant put things down so easily.

ah i should just fuck myself, and go die.

i wana run away and never come back.

2007-09-25T20:31:00.000-07:00

hello ppl... im tired and bored :/

so anyway the past few days me kj bekah calvin went gid house ton after sch
just wasting our time away
hahah but now we finally found smth interesting to do after sch :D

oh and now my final L1R5: 2o
i dont even know whether to just slack thrgh the first 1 month
or maybe go to like innova jc? haha.
i shall see first. hehe

i think i should start mugging now
if not it's gona be too too late
but im still so restless now :/

anw im addicted to the 9pm channel 8 show..
it's always so exciting can :D

blogging is boring. or maybe i shall change the whole layout someday
after o's :)

bye

Chris Daughtry ; Over you.
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

2007-09-22T21:28:00.000-07:00

hey

i didnt want to come online
but i need to vent my fuckstrations.

my results are fucking screwed.
got back most of it and it's totally below my expectations
screw ittttttttt. i cant possibly go to anywhere with that kinda points. urgh

so anw
went for tuition this morning
and wth i only did 2 qns. -.-

then went to meet stanley
went town..
and i was so godamn tired.
and yeah it seems like we nvr went out together before :/

after that i went to find besty
and we talked and makaned :)

yep and im finally home..
didnt manage to study today!!! feel damn shitty.

and im gg out to mug tomorrow
the ~~good~~ old study days are back. _l_
and jinfei is so stupid la. he thought kj was me and he msged wrongly
and today i dont even know what he's talking abt.
ahaha.

and im so screwed. my hp bill's coming tmr :(

I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more i try to feel the less i'm whole.

2007-09-20T22:58:00.000-07:00

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
got back some of the prelims results
it isnt very good.
okay at least i passed but still totally -.-
i want get into jc and nobody believes :(

hhehe but what rlly shocked me was my chem
my phys was like... f9?
but my chem pulled me up so much :D
and i passed my poa. wtF?
oh and i borderline passed my hmt. wtf again?
at least my 2 bonus points come into use. hehe

errr so somehow my best results now is my english.. :/
okokay enough bout results.

sch was somewhat okay..
after sch went makan and talked
talked talked talked and got home nearly 8.

and one more month to o's.
i slacked too much for prelims.. yes lah i regreted :(
im gona pia for o's soon :)

anyway tmr's sara the sexy black bday!
haha happy 16th!. may you turn whiter :D
and happy 17th bday, jx.

im gona watched the secrets dvd tonight!
jay chou so handsome ~~~
ehehe loves bye.

2007-09-18T22:54:00.000-07:00

yo

im feeling so sick
stupid flu
stupid bodyache..
and whats worse today i woke up feeling so much ache around my neck
cannot even turn my head lo :'(
cries.

and today the hike was horrible like crazy
madness please
the sun damn freaking hot and the hike's like nvr ending. zz
what relieve stress
im physically and mentally exhausted pls. haha

tired until crazy.

kay aftr that......
smth unpleasant happened
i didnt know how much it'd hurt to lose a friend,
until today.
but nw i hope it's alright again.
im quite tired of such things alr..

then find besty
we went to rent vcd
jian gui 1o -.-
watched before and we watched again..
ahah not dat scary afterall

and now im still aching all over
and i cant stop rubbing my nose :(
i so dont feel like gg to sch.!!!!

and im gona come online lesser now..
watching tv is nicer. ahah :D

nights and bye.

2007-09-17T23:44:00.000-07:00

yo guys..
zzz been busy these days
and tmr got this dumb hike.
i so dont feel like going please..!!!

anyway so like yest me and kj went ps first
and my top from fox's gone :(
in the end bought some esprit top..
then we head down to kovan
met bekah and pk
then went buy the ingredients and rented vcd
ahaha.

went her house..
watched some lame horror movie which wasnt scary at all -.-
we still can rewind lah. haha

then we went to cook spaghetti for the whole family :D

finally... tADA~~~

we guys rule!
haha though it somehow failed -.-
but we still eat it la k. haha

then we watched when a stranger calls in the rm
and totally freaked ourselves out
and i even need bekah to accompany me go into the toilet
and stupid kj and moses go off the light
i screamed like mad can!! :'(

and then bussed home :D

then today went vivo with kj
shopped and bought a top from forever 21 ;D

then kx gid and calvin FINALLY CAME. .-.-
uh huh then kx dun wan watch movie :(
so in the end we ended up slacking in skypark... go arcade.. go daiso then eat.

hahahaha.

they kept playing with the black thingy kx bought la. hahah
then me gid and kj went find deanna
went her mom's shop makan again
and finally back home :D

k damn long post
shall go slack and slp soon.

good night loves.

2007-09-15T22:17:00.000-07:00

im back! today's a nice day
met many ppl. haha

met cy
she cut hair.. then we went back srg
makan
and bekah rushed me!!!
then went town met her and pk

and i bought a red havaianas!
stood there for so long can
ahahha and the guy serving me was like so exasperated..
but it's so funny pls

oh let's see who we saw today..
hilary arron in srg ..
zhipeng eugenia and bekah's friend
aahah and somemore bekah friend we saw him two consecutive days
damn funny
okay actually not alot :/

and and tmr im gona find kj first to buy the top from fox
and head down to bekah house cook!!! :D

life's great this way
bye :)

fuck you!!!!
Don't be too hard on my emotions
i miss you but you dont need me now
why should i fucking care?!?!?!!? screw myself laH

2007-09-15T10:16:00.000-07:00

hello guys
shit my mom's in a bad mood nwwwww :(
i see how im gona get $$$ from her. zz

okay so anyway yesterday was our last papr!!!!! :D
damn happy man
although poa was a confirm flunk thingy
but still it didnt dampen my mood. haha

went to catch 13o3 with renee bekah and kj
then before that went deanna's mom shop makan
her mom's rlly nice actually.

oh anyway the show's so scary la
me neh and kj kept screaming non-stop..
and after the show im like still so scared -.-

aha k then no time pei besty cut hair..
so im gg ltr with her.. and meet bekah at town :D

bye!

friends come and go.
true friends stay.
i guess i wasted much of my sms on you.
you said you dont see our efforts
i promised your mom we wont give up on you
but why did you give up on us?
why dont you get that into your head that unless you try,
no matter how much we try.. it's nothing at all.
4 yrs of friendship, you just wan to give up everything?
how silly.
~~you claimed you are very hurt. but what abt me?~~
when i see your last msg yest, why did i tear?
can you learn to just fucking think?
you are giving us hell.
im rlly tired already. i dont see why im still hanging onto this if you dont give a shit.
why am i sill msging you now.
fuck it.

2007-09-14T00:57:00.000-07:00

im giving up on my poa man.......
zz
gona be 1am soon and im here slacking -.-

anw im so addicted to old songs!!!
they are so damn freaking nice la..
and touching too. sniffs :'(

backstreet boys and westlife aint gays man
they rule :D

shit im gona be emo soon after hearing all those songs :/

day after day
time pass away
and I just can't get you off my mind
nobody knows
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but i can't find

the courage to show
to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
and once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

night after night
I hear myself say
why can't this feeling just fade away
there's no one like you
you speak to my heart
it's such a shame
we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
but sooner or later I've gotta choose
and once again
I'm thinkin' about
taking the easy way out

god i shall download all their songs before i go to slp!! :D

and tmr is my last paper!!!!
and then we are gona go catch showw
horror movie :D
been so long since i freaked out. haha

then i gg find besty go jeffery there cut hair :D

and im super free after prelims can
so ppl jio me out! :)

nights guys
bye

2007-09-12T19:09:00.000-07:00

hey yo

been so long since i used this damn com la
cause im lazy to use cause it's so screwedddd..
so anw my prelims are screwed aswel :/
forget about the get into jc thing.

today's papers were urgh
and somemore the jonas brother's SOS song's stuck in my head..
so like while doing the dumb chem paper i cun frigging concentrate :(

im so tired of studying..
it's like so never ending pls
everyday practically doing the same thingggg
i need some life!!!!!!!
387*(^&465#$%#$%^(i(_)!!

and fuck poa on fri!
i hate poa. serious :(

k i feel like crying now
for no rhyme or reason
i feel like something's missing in my life.

okay i shall blog at my private blog..
bye.

i feel like im drowning in the ocean
somebody come and take me away ~~~
hahahahahaha.

2007-09-06T12:55:00.000-07:00

yo ppl

i've been mugging till v late these few days..
slept ard 2 plus am man.
totally feel like dying. cause like in the day go out also nvr study much
at night must chiong so much can.

so yeah anyway.. on tues i think
went vivo with my girls..
all of us bought smth from pull and bear! haha yay

then we went haygen daz. to mug.
wth right. the stuff there freaking ex. zz

this pathetic thingy cause us like what... wth?!

then went outside to chill. awww it's so nice just to sit outside lah

yeah and yest met my 2 bestfs to study at bishan
seriously you can find me in bishan almost everyday :/
okay bu i guess rest of the week not going there anymore.
probably only. haahah..

gona go start mugging soon.
must chiong alot today.. gg shopping tmr!
relieve stress you know? :D

bye!

2007-09-04T12:16:00.000-07:00

hey

omg im in a rush of time la..
im gona be late late late.
but i need to dl all my songs finish first!!

okay so anw
yesterday went bishan mug with ulric..
then after dat went amk with jinfei and ger

went mac to study..

then went arcade
and jinfei's friend dan or smth lent me his card
play play halfway..
then i lost it!!!
wtf.. make me so guilty pls.
but he's so nice la. thank god he didnt mind :D

alrighties! going vivo to mug now -.-
let's see where can we mug there. ahha

backstreet boys' inconsolable.

BACKSTREET BOYS' BACK!!!!!!!
listen to this man.
damn la super nice. stop the stupid lollipop video.
click play!!!!!!

bye :)

2007-09-03T00:21:00.000-07:00

hey guys

past midnight alr.. and im tired.
so anw.. went mugging today
met bekah and kj

and wtf i've got stomach cramps la!!!
so painful. :(
cries!!

then kx came..
and yeah studied abit
talked abit
went arcade.
kj! we must beat kx one day kk!! :D
haha.

think kx cant stand our camwhoring.. haha.

then went back study abit
and im back.

im gona go mug with ulric in the morning first
then go amk mug with ger and jinfei :D

oh since kj got her want to buy list..
i shall have mine too!
1. the striking blue jeans
2. green jeans aswell
3. red shorts
4. pull&bear tops
5. the shoes i saw that girl wearing today in mos!!
6. bag.

oh and kj.. bekah want go vivo on tues
so we changed the venue to vivo k
cause i wana buy stuff from pull&bear also :D
then we mug there :)
i dont want waste msg so msg me when you see this!

done :D
nights guys!
bye.

oh im in love with Mika's Lollipop.
the song's stuck in my head la.
listen to the video ---->

2007-09-01T23:57:00.000-07:00

yo guys

im freaking tired now..
gona be 12 soon. i feel like slping :/
but i wana watch tv ltr!!

oh so anw..
went bishan mug with chennie bestf
then at night had our girls outting :)
went srg garden..

yeah many picts :)

then we went coffeebean to slack..
nice place man :D

then im finally back home.
tmr meeting my lovely muggers [:

nights guys!

if we can make this last forever.

2007-08-30T22:13:00.000-07:00

hey guys!
finally a day when i didnt have to study :D

yeah screw ss.
think im gona screw the hell outta my prelims.
forget it! haha.

so like after that.. we had lit ssp.
then me kj bekah corine jinfei and mokker went amk hub
guess what?!?!?!
we went to watch ratatouille!!!!!!!!!!
omg super cute and nice man. :D
you guys must must must go watch k?:D

then me mok pei jinfei cut hair.
haha his hair looked like astroboy can. damn funny.
then went s-11 makan..
then walk ard.. and came back. yeppies
im a happy girl today :)

k.. i shall go and try to do the emath paper ltr.

bye!!

2007-08-28T15:52:00.000-07:00

im feeling ______ __.

pictures for the past few days..

gid spent all his $$ on this. wth right.

kk i gg bath soon..
maybe cy coming over ltr. or maybe not
it's raining. i love the rain :D

i hate school. it's driving me crazyyyyyy >(

bye.

happy bday corine! muacks.

/edited

hello elaine :)
your post's damn hilarious man.
you fuck my besty = fuck me.
just tell us straight in the face la pls. -.-
you are just a gutless freak man
till now you're still denying! haha. cant believe it.
alright i feel so bad to laugh at you.
anw i know it and you know it too..
you dont like me and i dont care.
so stop giving me a smile in sch when you see me.
anw it's the prelims now.. dont let this bother you alright?
i know you are very bothered. oh man. :/
k bye geeky kid :)

2007-08-26T23:59:00.000-07:00

yo guys

slept damn late yest and woke up damn late today
ahaha..
went to join kx bekah zuyao at bishan lib..
then gid and kj came
then didnt study much. kept talking and all.

after that went makan
then arcade
then kx me and kj went back lib study.
okay did study abit. ahha :D

anw kj's blog song so nice man.

你说的话总那么好听
你爱不爱我不能确定
也许你只把他当游戏
我却爱得太用力.

anw some personal stuff..
it's gona be prelims soon.
and i rlly hate such stuff to be happening like again.
why must you do such a thing to your good friend :/
we are all so tired of this alr.
come on get a life pls.
why dont you just focus on your studies now and stop doing things to inflict pain on others?

k goodnights ppl.
bye

2007-08-25T23:11:00.000-07:00

yay my com can work.
miracle huh.

yeah so anw went tuition this morn...
and it's kinda like waste my time man :/
but nvm

after that went to meet my besty :D
went bugis to get her black jeans
but she didnt buy..
so i was considering whether to sell her mine. ahah

in the end i went fox
and bought one jacket and one top
and poof 3/4 of my $$$ gone :(
actually wanted to buy the black cardigan since 1oooo yrs ago..
but it's like everyone's having it now. wtf :'(
so decided not to buy. yay xD

ohoh anw we saw ahem and ahem
omg so exciting! haha :P
laugh till peng

then went marina square..
walked around...
bought my stuff.. then went back srg cafe makan at night.

and im back home watching css finals
it's quite sian.
but im gona stay and watch tv till late night tonight xD

oh and im doomed on mon
i pon chi lesson on fri
and she saw me outside school ard 4 plus :(
i must faster think of another excuse liaozxz. sniff

okays
mugging with fellow muggers tmr :)

cya guys
bye

2007-08-23T18:53:00.000-07:00

yo guys

im dying to use computer man..
nw im using my sis's laptop.

so anw just to update
this week's damn screwed.
firstly i got an ulcer on my tongue..
which is damn fucking painful pls
and like duh it affected my oral !!!
and secondly because of that..
i cant talk :( and i can have to eat like damn slowly..
not as if i eat v fast usually.

so yeah..besides that
almost everyday i've got bad hair day :(
and im super pek chek during lessons.
eg ms ong confiscating my magazine which doesn belong to mine :(
and she doesn even have the intention to return me
cries. :'(

actually still got alot of stuff i wana blog la
but i cant rmb nw. so forget it
and so i left like 1o more mins to use.
how pathetic right.

anw my mind's bombarded with the thot of prelims nowadays
so uh huh i better do well this time round.

but im packed this weekend!!
how am i gona study man. boo

till then.
bye.

2007-08-19T20:23:00.000-07:00

It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing".

2007-08-18T23:26:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to me :)
and to mokker (15/o8) and gid (17/08)!

yeps. so like this morning went for tuition..
but my teacher cancelled it.
so went to meet kj for morning breakfast xD

after dat rushed home
then all of us went to marina square, including my sis's bf -.-
walked ard.. watched License to Wed
it's not bad. haha
then we went to have billy bombers.
nice xD

then i rushed to the mrt
to meet kj kx and gid..
then went to watch the fireworks.
it's soooo pretty pls? i want watch again!!!
yeah and we walked ard aimlessly after dat
and here i am.

damn tired now.
im going to bath soon! :D

lastly..
thanks for all the msges, the comments and the presents!
i love you guys loads.

loves. bye.
picts below.

~~this is the end of my really sad story.~~

2007-08-12T12:22:00.000-07:00

so much to do, so little time.

fuck life.

2007-08-10T22:39:00.000-07:00

went mugging with jaslin and ulric
then kj came

then saw noel joel wenhui and jieying
makan
then me kj went watched Rush Hour 3.
damn funny
laugh till peng.
and finally came home.

im tired of lifeeeeeee.

2007-08-09T23:36:00.000-07:00

happy national day!! :)

im a happy girl today :D

cause mom bought me a new mp4 today
and i got to watch those lovely fireworks man!

happy bday s'pore! :)

fireworks brighten up my day.

amber pacific rules.
random. haha.

im tired. i shall go slp.
bye

2007-08-08T20:48:00.000-07:00

woke up super early for cross country today

meet besty..
and in the end we were late
thanks to dear 133 which came at like 7.35 -.-
walked thrghout the whole thing..
and after the whole thing ended,
gerlee cy came my house and got changed

luckily we booked the tics alr
reached ps
and went arcade
and then went to watch Secret!
bloody nice and touching i tell you.
it's a must watch show!
cy cried the most man. haha.

after that we went outside and sat down
and talked. :)
then we started to get emo and all.
haha thanks to the movie.

oh yeah tmr me and sis finally not gg out
so we decided the whole family go watch fireworks tmr
cool huh. :D
been ages since we all go out together :/

bye :)

Jay Chou's Secret mv.

i want.
but i cant.

2007-08-06T22:02:00.000-07:00

i spent one hour fixing my damn com
actually wanted to just leave it alone.
but im bored :/
so yeah i fixed it, again.
but still im not gona dl limewire or msn alr
cause sooner or ltr this com's gona crash again
and all my songs are gg to be gone
so whats the use..... z

it's good anyway
prelims are like 2o more days away
flunking prelims = last thing i wana do.

so like today after sch had lit workshop
wtf
super boring and waste money.
whats worse tmr still gona tahan another 3 hours. >(

after that
kj bekah me aslam jinfei went srg cafe
ice-cream waffle's love <3
then gossiped crapped
and im back home.

oh and shawn tok was damn effing cute today man.

2007-08-05T22:26:00.000-07:00

Aly & AJ is the sex.

The type of guy who doesn’t see
What he has until she leaves
Don’t let me go
Cause without me, you know you’re lost
Wise up now or pay the cost
Soon you will know.

Like it or leave it
I can't help but feel like
I'm one, one in a million.

bye.

2007-08-04T23:20:00.000-07:00

perfect saturday:

met bekah kx kenneth at town
watched Alone.
it wasnt dat scary as i expected.. but still not bad.

after which corine and her bf came join us at cine arcade
then pool

then went wisma ate prata.
they left
so me kx and bekah trained to bishan
met jarrett
then played arcade again

and im finally back home. :)

my friends are what that keep me going on.

2007-08-03T19:34:00.000-07:00

im happy today :)

the lessons today were all slack and nice.

after school met up with my 2 girlfriends :D
went oppo makan
and saw Yi Zhi's dog!
omfg. it's the cutest thing ever.
then i went to carry it. omg so cute la can.

after that went 7-11 slacked again
talked for hours in there! haha
i love chenying and germaine lee <3
cant believe we are all actually in the same boat!
you girls know me the best. i love yall :D

then ger left
then met Noel.
he is ultimate cuteness!!!!
see i said you are cute here. haha
and i dont care. im your girlfriend! (self proclaim)
haha :D

cy left
then noel took my hp and went home
freaked me out like hell
in the end i got it back :D
and im back home

i stink now
i shall go bath.
im watchin Alone tmr! yay

emath later.

2007-08-03T01:33:00.000-07:00

我睁开眼睛却感觉不到天亮
东西吃一半莫名其妙哭一场
我忍住不想时间变得更漫长
也与你有关否则又开始胡思乱想

我日月无光忙得不知所以然
找朋友交谈其实全帮不上忙
以为会习惯有你在才是习惯
你曾住在我心上现在空了一个地方
原来爱情这么伤比想象中还难
泪水总是不听话幸福躲起来不声不响
太多道理太牵强道理全是一样
说的时候很简单爱上后却正巧打乱
只想变的坚强强到能够去忘
无所谓悲伤只要学会抵抗
原来爱情这么伤
原来爱情是这样这样峰回路转
泪水明明流不干瞎了眼还要再爱一趟
有一天终于打完思念的一场战
回过头再看一看
原来爱情那么伤
下次还会不会这样

2007-08-02T20:50:00.000-07:00

hello.

phys practical after sch = shit.
i drew the graph over and over again
think got like 1oo times.
and as usual im always the last few who leaves the science lab :(

uh huh then xinyun came meet us
so long since i last met with this bitch! :D
went makan
then went back sch mugged.
and she taught me the dont know what thingy
though i still dont understand but i love you :D

after that went srg cafe with kj
makan and then she started acting retarded.
she got spilt personality. crazy.

yeah im gona go do the joy luck notes tonight
and maybe emath.
im so not gona fall aslp this time round.
for your info i always fell aslp ard 9 or 1o plus for the past few days :/

i finally sold the top to chennie!
yay can collect money tmr.
im so seriously in need of money.

i want to be happy everyday.

2007-08-01T20:28:00.000-07:00

after school went oppo makan with dea bekah renee sp
then we bussed to amk
went to the amk headquarters..
stayed for sometime
and in the end they just said extend the bail -.-
like so bo liao pls.

after that bekah's mom bekah me and dea went amk hub
ate pepper lunch.
her mom's freakinggggg nice can?

then oh-so-nice me accompanied deanna took 73
cause she convinced me that it will stop near srg.
which apparently was not the case.
so it actually stopped at tpy interchange
and i had to take 153 back home again.
i got bus sickness okay!! :(

and shiokping thanks!
we are strong :D

2007-07-31T19:41:00.000-07:00

hello friends.

sch was totally boring as usual
after sch went oppo makan with kj bekah and shiokping.

then saw joel!
oh man cuteness. hehe :D

then went back find bestfriend
went to the top level to chill :)
perfect place man.

then ger came
went 7-11 slacked again.
and the uncle gave us snacks again. yayness! haha.

i want want want to go to the Singfest!!!
i need $$

why so little ppl online now?! :(

bye.

Here’s the final bullet to put our love to death.
Our days are never coming back.

2007-07-30T21:39:00.000-07:00

fuck my mom
fuck my sis
(:

woah the music blasting
it's making my eardrums burst

i dont need you guys to believe me
i shouldnt have listened to you guys and came home.
i should have just got out of the house like what you told me to this morning,
and not return.
i know you must be hurt.
but why shld i care abt how you feel when you dont even give a damn abt how i feel inside? [:
i dont give a damn abt wad you guys think alr.

i stayed back in sch
and did one compo
one formal letter
and finish poa.
and i ate alot alot alot today.

oh and i came across a v sweet lesbian couple
maybe i should consider being les. anyone?
haha :D
bye.

2007-07-29T21:35:00.000-07:00

went lib with kj bekah
then jinfei came.
went arcade.

nan ren. :D

oh and i finally won kj in daytona! xD

kx and gid came
wanted to di xiao the s.d again
but couldnt find.
then went home
watched high school musical..
and mom kp again. wtf
i dread it when she's at home.

i feel like screamingggggggggggg

bye.

2007-07-29T00:13:00.000-07:00

hello ppl.
i just reached home. :/

anw im so screwed.
i haven bath yet.. and im like so sticky and yucky
and i just locked myself in the room
cause dear mom is kp-ing again.
like whatever.. my life now is damn fucked up now
it doesn matters whether it gets worse or not.

so anyway..
bestfriend called me this morning
woke me up
and then i realised i'm gona be late meeting kj and bekah for breakfast
so i didnt join them.

then went to school
did flag day with kj bekah chiahow justin

went amk hub
mostly slacked.
and dear chiahow treated all of us for lunch! :D

then went back sch.
tan chye i said it wasnt enough. like wtf
in the end chia how changed his money into coins and shared among our tins
oh mannnnn im touched chia how!! :D

dedicated to you.

:D

then me and bekah chiong to srg mrt
and got changed.
she left and i went to meet bestfriend at bugis.

i went shopping
shopping cures depression. HAHA

then we went makan
then go to our usual sit-and-talk place

muacks love ya.

she snaps me secretly. awww.

then went back srg
met kj
bussed to bishan to meet kaixiang

and we went arcade play
yay my daytona got improve can.

and we went mos to study
then i asked my dad to fetch me back home.

the end.

2007-07-28T00:01:00.000-07:00

is it a sin if i admit i still miss you?

when night falls, my heart cries.

2007-07-26T23:59:00.000-07:00

edited.

i thought about it alr.
it's not worth it. why am i crying my guts out for such a useless guy?
yes it hurts alot. it still hurts alot now.
but just for those who care about me
im really gona try hard.
and deanna, im not acting happy this time round.
i will be really happy. i just need time.
im not a weakling.
fei ge! i said i will be a happy girl.
i didnt kept to my promise today. but i wont be like this tmr anymore [:

but for now
thanks kaijia deanna xinyun (im touched by your post) bekah joyce shiokping chennie germ tkfp corine and all those who were there for me in my darkest moments! :)
i wont let those tears you guys teared to be wasted.
im strong.

to end things off
i wanna tell you this
i dont know whether have you ever truly love me before.
you dont need to tell me, because you know it yourself.
now, i felt like i dont know you at all.
it's gona be one year soon.. but now you seem like a complete stranger to me.
to tell you the truth
you are the first guy whom i have loved so deeply.
and you are also the guy who hurt me the most deeply.
there are so many things i wanted to tell you over the phone that day.
but it just seems like you are so defensive and nth else matters to you anymore.
i didnt even hear one 'i love you' from you.
you didnt even sound remorseful, you didnt even think you are wrong.
all those sorries.. you said that for the sake of saying it isnt it?
i wanted to meet you because i wanted to bring you to vivo.
and to ask you whether you still rmb the things you told me.
but i guess there's no point at all.. because you simply dont care.
hate is the result of wounded love.
i ~~loved~~ you too much.
but finally it has come to an end.

i wont stand by you anymore.
you gave love a bad name.

oh and those bitches who hate me
you may think im stupid to be fooled by a guy i loved so much
because to you guys
love is equal to love sex and then bye.
but im different. i truly loved before, have you?
you girls wont affect me. :)

Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jack
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back.

/edited.

There's a piece of glass sticking in my back and tar covering my mouth.
But it's okay cause I'm still breathing.

31 more days to prelims.

no one understands how i feel.
but seriously i dont give a damn.
i dont need a man in my life.
and i cant play you boy, im not as despicable like that guy.

and dont push your limit fuckers.

2007-07-25T21:20:00.000-07:00

met stanley
then met kj at night and talked

hey ppl no worries k
tmr im a happy girl again! xD

and i lost everything in my hp.. all songs and picts
and now cant even put a single song in. wtf

but nvm. at least it's a new start from now on

And there's no going back for us now, no way
I think it's time we set things straight.

2007-07-25T20:26:00.000-07:00

KAIJIA INVADES! xD

2007-07-25T10:00:00.000-07:00

it's all a beautiful facade.
it's so beautiful it makes me wanna cry.

i love you girlfriends! :)
i'll be back sch tmr. i will be fine.

anw guys i've got a new temporary number
it's 82454202
at night i'll check my old phone and reply your msges
so pardon for all the late msges!

it's all deep and meaningless.
i finally see through your true colours.
i cry not because i still love you.
i cry because of my stupidity.
goodbye.

2007-07-23T18:56:00.000-07:00

I've given a lot of thought
to the nights we used to have
The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing
on your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you,
but you swear you loved me more
Do you care if I
don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight
or will you think of me
Will I shake this off
and pretend its all okay.

i shall get a prepaid card soon.

2007-07-22T22:00:00.000-07:00

fuck my mom.

went vivo meet ger and xinyi.

and we spent most of our time chilling at skypark
it's dam relaxing and coolin :)

then we bought donuts
and went out again.

xinyi said our act emo attempt failed.

lies and candy-coated kisses.
ever wonder how disappointed i am?

2007-07-22T12:27:00.000-07:00

im here to dedicate my love to Yap KaiJia the F.T.
thanks for talking to me till this morning! love you so muchhhhh
but too bad your mom is such an irritant. :(
but nvm i still love you!

eh sound so cheesy alr.
okay but i still love you BITCH. :D

have a lil sunshine, s-m-i-l-e?

2007-07-21T23:09:00.000-07:00

went to bugis today with bekah.
and she bought jeans.
so i bought jeans too. :D
and then she bought so muchhhhhh stuff.
but yeah i only bought that jeans.

after that went vivo
and it's camwhore session.

then met red pig (hahahahahaha)
went town.

and now im back home. :)

2007-07-21T08:39:00.000-07:00

This innocence is brilliant
It makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance, please don't go away
'Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by.

2007-07-20T21:06:00.000-07:00

kaijia that asshole woke me up at 5.45am, when i finally got to slp.
and she claimed that it's 6.45am already.
freaked me out totally!!
and then i looked at my alarm clock and my hp..
and it's 5.45am. how dumb can she get -.-

so anw it's racial harmony day. boring.

after sch went pizza hut with mong qingting kj and dea
and then me and dea followed kj back to potong pasir..
stayed in the mac and talked.
then went back sch to get smth
and went n&b talked again till 8 plus :)

kj you must do what you promised me!
but i doubt i can do it now. sigh

im being damn attitude nowadays.. with no reason
and im having my moodswing now again.

2007-07-20T03:50:00.000-07:00

it's 3:48am in the morning

but i dont feel like slping at all.

I just want to fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and runaway.

2007-07-19T17:26:00.000-07:00

i love rainy days.
i hope it rains every morning.

cabbed to lil india after sch today
accompanied annoying kj to get her stuff.
and im back home to get some sleep. :D

honey stars are lovesss :D

i think we're losing it.

bye.

2007-07-18T19:00:00.000-07:00

wth i intend to slp at like 11
but talked on the phone till now
i still need to charge my hp..
and wait for it to charge finish cause it's my alarm clock
im tired and i want to slp :(

/edited

hey guys.
sch started off with a v lousy note.
spotcheck in the morning and then the rest of the day was dramatic.

oh and i threw kj's hp on the floor when deanna said there's ghost in the toilet. :D

initially intended to catch show with corine and jinfei today
but i pangsehed. sorry feifei. xD
and some stuff happened after sch
even some sec 3s are bitching and quarrelling. damn funny pls?

so after school met up with my dearest loves
makan at oppo, got my stuff.
i bought the men's gatsby! it's fucking coollll :D
and im trying out neutrogena's cleanser. it better work.

acompanied ger to cut hair
and then they come my house ton.

anyway be strong girl!
the horoscope actually came true. damn.
but what matters the most is that you are happy.
time will heal all wound, you will feel less hurt than yesterday.. and tomorrow even less hurt than today. sooner or later, you will get over it.
we are here <3

literature notes later, emath paper 2.
force me to do it.

2007-07-17T20:50:00.000-07:00

waking up early = not enough slp = pek chek
but still morning breakfast with bitch was love <3

after school bussed to bishan with ger jas and xinyi,
and me and jas went lib
and i fell aslp there.
then i went home.

Juliet when we made love you used to cry
You said I love you like the stars above I’ll love you till I die
There’s a place for us you know the movie song.

2007-07-15T20:43:00.000-07:00

hey guys

i woke up freaking early for tuition..
like been so long since i went? :/
yepps
then went kj house there find her..

we bussed to bishan
then gid and kx came
stayed in mos and kj taught me the alkene stuff
yeahhh
..

after dat we were so bored
so gid suggested gg to di xiao the store detective in ntuc -.-
damn funny pls?
cause like the store detective aint supposed to let ppl know he's a detective..
i mean his job is to catch ppl shoplift
and yeah but gideon spotted him
and started annoying him and everything..
then we started to act suspicious..

and he was like so fierce lah
he kept looking at us and he knew dat we know he's the s.d
HAHAHA
our main motive was like wana him to check us
and then show him the receipt
but he didnt come find us!!! wahlau just diao us.. no fun >:@!

THE VIDEO!!! ahahah
he knows we following him
but cun reveal his identity so he went into the store room
HAHA :D

he damn funny
trying to act he aint a detective
pretending to tok on the phone also. hahah super funny man

then we went arcade..
we were so addicted to the bball thingy..
our score damn lousy lah!!!
but still great improvement man :D
then played some stupid drumming thing
and i seriously suck in daytona. MUST IMPROVE!

kkk shant play so much
i should study more
yeah startin frm tmr..
pay more attention in class..
go home or wherever to mug aftr sch.
yeps

im off
bye

我不想不愿不去承认我的执著
怕不知不觉无法忍住眼泪不留
~~i knw it's gona happen sooner or later.~~
~~but may i know when?~~

2007-07-14T20:34:00.000-07:00

The broken radio is humming a song,
but the lyrics don't fit
and the voice is all wrong
but I recognize the tune,
and this one is for you.

yeah today was kinda like my last shopping outting ......
cause im officially gona go mug starting tmr !!!! :D
YES I CAN DO IT. DONT DOUBT ME
im gona be full time mugger now :D

oh anw so we went town today... i got a bad hair day >:@
pffts
and yeah i finally bought a new sch bag.....

then went mango bought a top
and went mango lingo bought mango lingo !!
ahah mango x 3 -.-

eeeee yucks
i haven bath
im so sticky and dirty
i shall go bath now!

bye ppl :D

2007-07-13T17:09:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOH QINGTING! >:D

hey guys

i was feelin damn fucked up tday in sch..
firstly mrs ngiam damn kp
i rlly cun stand her man.. so attitude for what. wth

and huh got back my emath papers..
and like duh
flunk like siao
then suddenly somehow reality struck me
and i was like.. wth am i doing for these past few months..

yeah..
im gona really start mugging
like no one's gona help me.. i can only help myself?
im gona chiong nw
my results are = shit nw. f

so like aftr sch
went kovan with gf to get my emath tys
and then sat down and talked..
other stuff aint impt now.
i need to get my studies back to the right track man

from next week onwards
no gg out to slack on weekends anymore..
as instructed by my gfs -.-
ahah love them to bits :D

im rlly going to study hard.

bye.

2007-07-11T20:54:00.000-07:00

hey loves

tday was indeed better than yest
at least i got over my silly mood swingssss ..

so yeah
actually didnt attend much lessons tday
most imptly i pon chinese!!!!!! WOOHOO :D
either staying in toilet or standing outside the class
anw girl.. see i told you everything'll be fine !!!
so silly. ahah

yeah
after sch
went oppo with kj dea neh wh and jf
makan.. then went back sch

cy wanted to go watch harry potter today ..
and i was like.. huh so fast okay
so like we went jubilee to watch
the seats are damn uncomfortable
and harry potter was boring and disappointingggggg >:@ !
i kept wanting to fall aslp lah

i still intend to watch this movie twice....
but no way i can tahan thrgh it anymore
kkk it's not DATTTT BAD. but it still aint good.
sian 1/2

i want songs
someone send me songs pls!!!

bye

2007-07-10T23:24:00.000-07:00

screw tday.

waking up late + sch = fucked up mood

after sch met jaslin
went bugis settle her stuff..
walked ard
im saving $$$ nowadays
but i spent so much tday lah pls ?!

got home
my com got prob again.....
spent like one hour fixing my com

AND EVERYTHING'S GONE NW
MY PICTS SONGS EVERY SINGLE THING GONE
hahahahahahahaha
fuck my com

im feeling damn 8&*(%^&%*790 nw

let tmr be a better day for godsake.

2007-07-09T22:11:00.000-07:00

p.s LOOK AT DAT DAMN YANDAO VOCALIST <3

OMFG
CLICK FIVE'S NEW ALBUM IS AMAZING.
IM BACK TO GO GAGA OVER THEM ALR. ehehehe :D

omg omg i listened to al their songs..
and all are SO FREAKING NICE?!
but i cant download them. shld i buy their album...
wthhh they seriously rock your socks off !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh anw
first day of sch sucks.
i flunked my first paper = poa
49.5 ~~~~~~~~
nice one to start the ball rolling. ahaha

anw watched die hard again tday
and jx sucks by saying die hard sucks
MUAHAHA

k
bye

THE CLICK FIVE
Mary Jane (my fav song in the new album besides Jenny ->)

I didn't cry the day you moved away
I didn't think that I could feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you
Whatever happened to our innocence
and the somethin' that you said about being friends
tell me how
help me say the words out loud

could it be
that nothings gonna change
cause time has got a way of taking back
everything you thought you had
can you see
the girl you used to be
the one I lost when I let go of you
oh whatever happened to
mary jane
ooh ooh
ooh ooh

I need to wake up from this state of mind
the situation is the same kind
I gotta get your memory out of my head
would you catch me if I had to fall
would you even find the time for that at all
tell me how
help me say the words out loud

could it be
that nothings gonna change
time has got a way of taking back
everything you thought you had
can you see
the girl you used to be
the one I lost when I let go of you
oh whatever happened to
mary jane
ooh ooh
ooh ooh

cause time has taken back
everything I thought we had

Mary Jane..

could it be
nothings gonna change
cause time has got a way of taking back
everything you thought you had
can you see
the girl you used to be
the one I lost when I let go of you
oh whatever happened to
mary jane
ooh ooh
oh whatever happened to
ooh ooh
mary jane

2007-07-08T23:19:00.000-07:00

We are what we dont see,
missed everything daydreaming.

2007-07-08T00:15:00.000-07:00

edited!!!

/edited!

hey

today was quite screwed. ahah
woke up nearly at 1pm..
then i was like shit shit
cause im supposed to meet cy at 1 aswel
so in the end she came my house first. ahah
freak me out pls -.-

yeps
so we went bugis...
and we went to the cinema there to talk [:

after dat pei her find her stuff...
then the traffic light was like damn lots of ppl squeezing here and there
until i cldnt stand it
worse still someone stepped on me !!!!! >:@
i was so pek chek i shouted dam loud
stop stepping me lah..
in the end the aunty behind me kept aplogising to me
HAHA FELT SO GUILTY! :P

yeps
i was like damn dumb..
i was supposed to meet the others at 645
and meet kj kx jarrett first at 63o..
in the end at 6 2o im still in bugis...
and still slacking la pls ? ?!?!?!
until i suddenly realise why the hell im still in bugis.
ahaha in the end chiong like mad! ahah

sooooooo anw
me kj kx jarrett wenhui peifen hazel lything went to ade's church
listened to this concert... okay
then after dat al of us went makan
ate prata >:D

and while gg back..
we had to walk this damn ulu and dark place
got so many bangalahs there can !!!!
scared the hell outta us. zz
somemore still got one talked to us and followed us al the way to mrt
WTH GO DIE
MAKE US SO SCARED!!!! hahha
anw i love adeline :D :D

yeah
just finish bathing
i smell of satay totally just nw . ahah

ohoh picts (:
rest with lything !

'

TODAY IS 070707 GREEN DAY!
hahahhah
wear green !! but i didnt -.-

bye

2007-07-06T23:28:00.000-07:00

yo babes !!!

im feelin v blue these few days..
stupid moodswings.

so anw sch was retarded tday
career seminar was........... boring.
i still cant decide where to go after i graduate !!
i wanted to be a doctor. HAHA
then i wanted to do tourism
and i also want to do business studies.
omgggg what should i do ?! hahaha.

so like after sch
intended to go home.... but wenhui said noel was alr waiting in bishan
ahaha so we went
makan talked and al....
then joel came
been long since i saw them!!!! >:D!

noel went buy some stuff with wenhui..
then after awhile..
joel came
we looked up and were like
"wth. how come noel change his clothes so fast"
and we realised is joel! HAHA

and..........
TADA!

HAHAHAHA

talked until quite late..
walked ard again
and we bussed back
got home ard 1o plus.. damn tired
so i cancelled tuition tmr xD

OKAY BYE

2007-07-05T20:44:00.000-07:00

town with the girls are loves (:

nd i didnt spend any $$$ tday at all !
but i've got so much to buy...
i shall start saving al over again..

and and mango lingo is love xD
we saw alot of cute stuff tday..
i felt like buying all. pffts >:@!!!
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

the germaines rulez :D
EHEHEH

sch tmr
it seems like sat today..
okay
bye

2007-07-04T23:10:00.000-07:00

happy birthday deanna xD
loves x 214989324

and happy bday DAD!!! <3

TODAY'S LIKE THE LAST PAPER PLS? >:D!!!
eehehehe
poa paper was okok ..
oh anw got back my ppr..
i only failed 2... !!!!!! woohoo yay

after dat went home
got changed and al
met deanna
then kj
then the three of us went to town.....
makan.. played arcade.. camwhore
and zhishen finally came!! WOOHOO
he's filthy rich. wth

i want buy soft toys!!!!

so like we go catch DIE HARD 4.0
WTH!!! DAMN COOLLLLLLLL super exciting ;D
..
then we went back arcade
my daytona sucks.

after dat
me kj went allllll the way to bukit batok to get our tops
then trained back to ps
had dinner......
and finally im home !

im so bloody tiredddddd
luckily tmr NO SCH XD

and im broke
and tmr dont even know where we gg....
somewhere dun need spend $$ can anot
zz

kk

im so tired nw
i haven even bath.... i dun even feel like moving
bye

i suddenly rmb smth funny
me : i hate you x 3
kj : do i look like i love you?

HAHAHA DAT BITCH.